50 drafts

I’ve started to write this blog for myself. To have a space to train myself to write things down and to make some sense of it. It was partly learning how to write and part therapy.

At the time I had some idea what I wanted to write about, but it has fairly changed over the time.

The core premise, unknowingly, was to get over some part of perfectionism, which I found out about later on.

I was thinking that we, as a society, are not good at accepting that doing things just above the average is actually pretty decent. And as I’ve pondered more about some topics, I’ve realised that we have no clue what the average tends to be. However I also can’t say that it tends to be much lower or much higher than you think. Some people will think that average person will beat a brown bear in a fight the other one think that average person will not kick weasel’s ass. Even with a lot of objective data, I’ve learned that it always depends on the context of the beholder and the narrative people have.

Were you successful in life because you grew up poor and it forced you to learn needed skills or despite of? If you find yourself in these narratives, just try to switch it in your head and think about it from the other side. See what happens. What would it mean if it would be the other way? What would I have to hear to change my opinion?

Anyway, I have 50 posts in draft and it makes me wonder if I still have the same problem. That I want things to be perfect. That I want to everything to have some good argument and learning. And if I can’t find it at the moment, it’s not worth sharing.

So here we are, another day, another lesson and that it is better to just wrap things up even when there isn’t some smart conclusion. And I think one of the reasons why I tend to do that is that I read books and listen to people who wrote books. And I need to now step back and realise that’s what people have done their whole lives. They wrote articles, books, done research on one topic to have the conclusion and learning. Often they will have a team or writer to create the seamless narratives and flow.

And I’m just learning it. So here we go, let’s clean up some of the drafts.

This post wasn’t a draft. Is there some lesson in that? That sometimes it’s better to follow your minds interest than to obsess over the old? But then this wouldn’t be written…

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