Knowing that I’ve always been really terrible at writing was stopping me from starting a blog to share some random thoughts for years. I’ve started few blogs over last few year, although I never wrote anything. I always really liked setting up different WordPress themes following with sheer disappointment and frustration “WHY DOESN’T IT LOOK AS GOOD AS THE EXAMPLE SITE?!” (find Homer Simpson building a grill for reference).
Lately, I’ve been thinking that frustration comes from knowing how top 10% blogs look like, how entertaining they are and feeling that “it should be easy”.
By this time I’ve left my desk three times, just to get away from that anxiety!
After setting the text above into italic, I’ve rewarded myself with a random youtube video. Well deserved after such an accomplishment. Good job you!
Ok… back to the dread. Where does the feeling that something, someone put thousands (10s, 100s) of hours into, should be easy comes from? And why should I be anywhere close to it having no experience with writing? Can I even ever be that good? Or why should I even aim to be as good?
Very likely I won’t be and I should be ok with it.
“So what’s different this time from the last few times?” Good question random imaginary person! I like you already!
No, I won’t go check the cookie jar again, there are no cookies! Fridge is empty as well! I’ve checked three times already!
I’ve started to believe that it’s better to aim to be just above average. Roll the credits! I’ve always focused on one thing and became fairly obsessed with it until I was fairly good at it. How hard is it to leave that cosy place afterwards… And quite often how much time is wasted there. This is not a call to be mediocre, but to focus on more aspects of life and aim to be just above average across all of them, which I now believe is less effort for much more benefits.
Now to comfort one of my cats in heat with some nice treats!
Just above average 